2. Nov, 2022

Pondering

Ponder what?
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21. Oct, 2022

One year heavenversary

Wednesday, 19 October 2022, one year since you left us for heaven,.
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18. Oct, 2022

364 days!

I cannot help it, but I keep on reliving Liam's last few days with us.
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10. Oct, 2022

Almost one year

No, I cannot! I promised Liam...
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30. Sep, 2022

Liam's birthday

So we made the worst of the firsts - Liam's birthday
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21. Sep, 2022

Greatest fear

It is true!?!
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9. Sep, 2022

So Many Feelings

Here are some grief thoughts that do not make me feel proud, but nonetheless I have them every single day.
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2. Sep, 2022

Fascia Release

The worst pain I have ever felt
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26. Aug, 2022

Stuck

Missing out on five years of stuff
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19. Aug, 2022

Ten months and counting forever

Ten months ago on a Tuesday morning, I woke you up for the last time.
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12. Aug, 2022

Why?

W H Y !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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5. Aug, 2022

Time....

Time is a monster
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29. Jul, 2022

Missing you so much it aches everywhere

I am struggling so badly...
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21. Jul, 2022

No healing in sight

Plans are changed for me
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8. Jul, 2022

MEMORIES

This last week was a pretty bad one for me.
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29. Jun, 2022

Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD)

The Mayo Clinic defines post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) as a mental health condition that's triggered by a terrifying event — either experiencing it or...
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22. Jun, 2022

8 months and counting

This first year is terribly sore
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13. Jun, 2022

Denial

Back and forth
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30. May, 2022

Empty space

I am lonely
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20. May, 2022

Hope...

This week was a difficult one again.
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13. May, 2022

Do you think they know they are going to die?

Sharp knife of a short life
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3. May, 2022

Waves of sadness and sadness

We went away on our first week long seaside holiday without Liam.
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22. Apr, 2022

The missing is torture

Will it ever become less painful?
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19. Apr, 2022

Six months

182 days
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19. Apr, 2022

Pathology and autopsy

What to expect.
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19. Apr, 2022

To view or not to view

I am glad I did
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19. Apr, 2022

Burial

Difficult one to answer.
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19. Apr, 2022

Liam will be Liam forever

Heaven against the world child
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19. Apr, 2022

Shattering Times

Written on 10 Jan 2022
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19. Apr, 2022

It's Tuesday Again

Written on 11 Jan 2022
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19. Apr, 2022

Raging Bull

LISTEN!
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19. Apr, 2022

Memorial or Funeral

Create your own ritual
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19. Apr, 2022

Tragic Accidental Death of Teenage boy at home

Ray of sunshine is gone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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8. Apr, 2022

From dark to grey

Prayer is strong!
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31. Mar, 2022

Life goes on!

Another young man needs me still
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29. Mar, 2022

D E P R E S S I O N

The last two weeks I have been absolutely depressed.
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18. Mar, 2022

Loneliness

Kyrie Eleison
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11. Mar, 2022

Anger!

Scream...
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4. Mar, 2022

No more pity party

Yesterday was the lowest I have felt since the day Liam died.
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2. Mar, 2022

Ash Wednesday and a new chapter starts

I was referred to this new counselor who also lost a boy at age 12.
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28. Feb, 2022

Scratch, scratch, scratch...

At least we know
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25. Feb, 2022

Another sad first

Today my scouts team (Voortrekkers) will be attending their first camp without Liam.
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24. Feb, 2022

Friends

I have not written in a few days.
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21. Feb, 2022

Another month!?!?

I am angry, so very angry!
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17. Feb, 2022

Afraid

My hubby is away on business for two days and will only be back late tomorrow.
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15. Feb, 2022

16 weeks to the day

I must sound like a gramophone.
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11. Feb, 2022

Up and down the roller coaster

Today I am at a much better place than the past two days.
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10. Feb, 2022

Drip, drip, drip...

The last two days it has been feeling if small, but constant drops of my soul have been dripping out of me and making a puddle of misery on the floor.
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8. Feb, 2022

Emotions? Stages?

I started a new book by Gary Roe Shattered - Surviving the loss of a child tonight.
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6. Feb, 2022

People are sent to you at the right time

Joy might return
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3. Feb, 2022

Braveheart

Yesterday I went to have my pinky fingers straightened.
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1. Feb, 2022

Screaming on the inside

Come back!
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31. Jan, 2022

Hundred and four days

104 days since I last saw your real face, smelled your real hair and heard your actual voice.
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29. Jan, 2022

Little Miracles

Happy day?
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24. Jan, 2022

Another two firsts

I missed my favourite fac
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20. Jan, 2022

The day after a black day

Yesterday was most of the hardest and darkest days in my life.
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18. Jan, 2022

Twelve weeks - 90 days

It will NEVER get better!
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17. Jan, 2022

Voortrekkerbaadjie (Scouts Jacket)

Hard to breathe
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29. Dec, 2022

Second Festive Season without you

Hard to breathe
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